The intellect is cleared but the emotions not

After becoming an atheist, you will suddenly enter into a state of intellectual clarity, but not necessarily into a state of emotional clarity.

For years and years, you had suppressed your emotions and feelings, believing all to be 'covered by the blood'.

You'll soon discover there's no such thing. There's a big fat bunch of feelings and emotions waiting for you to discover and to hopefully get over.

Good luck!